I don't know what the picture is about- just a random choice. I'm a bit tipsy, to be honest, so who knows what it means. It's already been posted, but there is rhyme and reason to everything.
love
Once You Had Gold - Enya
Once you had gold,
Once you had silver,
Then came the rains
out of the blue.
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.
Now you can see
Spring becomes autumn,
leaves become gold
falling from view.
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream come true,
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.
What is the dark;
shadows around you,
why not take heart
in the new day?
Ever and always.
Always and ever.
No-one can promise a dream for you,
Time gave both darkness and dreams to you.
So choose! - author's note
hehehe
So belive me when i say that i love you all.
I am not perfect. Far from it. But i'm on my way, and I belive it. And i love you
11 comments:
A bit tipsy? What've you been up to missy?!
How can you love us all?
I mean, you don't even know me or many of the people who read the random blogs. And even then, there must be people you'd exclude, or favour over others. you love them, and then you snub them? Even the most happy person, cannot love everyone.
In response to Jess: I went out to dinner with my family, nothing sinister
And to anonymous: You are right, in that I am not perfect. There are those I would favour over others. But here we have a clash in beliefs, so therefore there is not much else to say, unless you would prefer I go on?
Take care
I don't think perfection lies in loving everyone equally. Actually I don't think perfection exists so yeah screw that idea. I do however, think it is possible to love *everyone*, but how truthful and deep this love would be would be questionable, and thus your whole idea of love could be a sham, i tell you! I think to have a *care* of everyone is more reasonable, which is what i do. I've never claimed to love everyone in the world (except in my states of silliness), cause I'm pretty sure there's some fucked up people out there who I woudln't want to love. Haha.
Who knows! We can just agree to disaggree! :)
Yeah, that's Kris for you - can't stand her own in a conversation so must back out and decide that we all have different views which can't even be discussed :P
I was going to mention ya, Saying we're all different in our opinions is a complete cop out on the entire chain of thought. If you dont' want to talk about it, just say that rather than "who knows!".
Caring for everyone, thats easily possible 4 everyone. Personally, ive grown tired and cant give much of a fuck about everyone any more. Centering on the self, ect ect.
But Be fucking honest with yourself girl, You seem to put on a happy face, "Luf you all" attitude here. But i cant Honestly see you loving everyone. Or even the matter of favoring over others. I mean, i go back into the blog a bit, and look at stuff, look at those other comments and what not. I mean, i can't attribute to how you act in real life, but i've taken a look at the Swamp Thing's blog, and honestly, from what i've gotten, you treat him like shit. Maybe thats just because he's an ass, or because you two have some history (i am unsure of the details). Or perhaps you "favour" others over him. But i admit, its a crap stitch.
And you said that i could ask you to go on, so please do. I'm interested to see if you do genuininly care about everyone, or love everyone, or favour others or whatever it is. Or if i can poke some holes in your arguement, and make you think about sum shit in yourself.
Mmmmm, well, how to handle this one ay? Bit of a tricksy situation.
Yes, I do prefer just to not go into my beliefs because there doesn't seem to be much point in it. And I certainly do not argue them because, as convincing as things seem to me, they simply probably wouldn't be to other people, and I am really just living on faith at the moment and little hints, because that's what works for me right now. It is entirely possible that I am wrong about everything in general, I acknowledge. I just don't see the point in talking about it much because little discussions tend not to effect people unless they want to be effected, or want change or something in their lives, or whatever.
But as an experiment, I shall discuss.
In relation to your comment that I should be honest with myself, that is exactly what I am striving for and believe I am reaching, slowly but surely. It's just that our pardigms of reality seem to be quite different. I take a spiritual view of the whole thing, that equates in very simple to terms to the idea that God is love. I think I have a very long way to go (ie. many lifetimes)until I reach the ultimate stage of 'enlightenment', (that's what I mean when I say I'm not perfect in relation to the whole love everybody thing). But I am gladly working on it.
I do not wish to defend myself further because I know that there are bits in what you have said that I can think about and have thought about and do think about frequently, and defending myself would be lies or at least defense mechanisms which are no help to anyone. (and much of this has been defending myself I guess! mmmm) I guess that's all for now.
Toodleoo!
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And now that that's over, I shall leave you with love.
Bye bye.
I think Your allowed to be defensive. Your allowed to have a little break down.
Its just human to do that shit.
its allowed. its normal. just don't go all "oh i'm fine and made of english scones and sunshine" afterwards, unless ya feel it. And if you do, well ur prolly bipolar.
And yeah, sure, don' put your beliefs on here. But its not an arguement is it? i'm not attacking how ya acting, and telling you should change, and this reason 'here for it. Im just saying what i see. And what you say, its cool to read. Cool to think about about. but that goes two ways. what i say, should be thought about. Not argued mate.
Oh.. and just a thought. If u already think its going to take you many lifetimes to get to the stage of enlightenment, then it will. its antainable in one lifetime, and that makes way more sense than the reincarnation. Sure, your soul gets better, but your soul aint the one pulling the gears up in your head. You are, all yur chem processes going on. All you can do is stick yourself in the right gears, and do the right thing. Hope ur soul catches on that ur meant to be perfect already. That does mean going and fixing burnt bridges, fix everything you already fucked up, and try to not fuck up in the future. Thats why ya lucky girl. You are young. You haven't done so much you can't fix it?
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I do indeed think about what you are saying, I'm not just dismissing any of it gratuiously. And you just said some interesting things.
And I guess now that I'm a little more comfortable and not feeling attacked I am thinking a bit more straight, hehe. I'll just work on that, won't I. Jess aparently didn't see it as an attack at all, which to me shows that different people perceive things very differently, and thus makes me see that my mind does not necessarily know anything.
One could say that it's alright to be defensive and all that. But I don't want to be that way because it does not make me happy. I want to tear it all down, all the ego stuff, except I'm not yet ready to completely surrender that way. I choose not to be there yet, is probably more true.
And yeah, I wasn't having a little breakdown and then pretending to be fine. Rather I went away and relaxed and resolved it somewhat, to a certain degree, and so felt a little better.
Your last paragraph there is definitely some food for thought. I could come with points for and against, as with everything, so thus I will just sit with it for a while and see what happens.
It's been great talking to you, by the way :)
Ta ta
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